OOOOOWWWWWWW!

*holds my back as I try and sit down*

My back HURTS! It has been hurting for a couple weeks now...I think it has something to do with the falling apart couch we have. So, walking for a mile did nothing but aggravate it! But I DID walk a mile. Burned 214 calories! WOOHOO! Hoping to get back there tomorrow...Not sure about Sunday. If I CAN get back there, I will try and do the full work out that I am supposed to do. 40 minutes on the treadmill, then off to the machines to do the weight training/toning. Will also have to go either a LOT earlier, or later to do the full cycle. But at least I was there and moving! Yeah, ME! :p

excited!

This morning, I have my session with the trainer, Kevin! I am both excited and scared! The last time I was even NEAR a gym, to actually work out, was when I was 18 and was going to Nautilus. I so hope I don't screw up, or make a fool of myself..... I think that is my biggest fear, especially with being the size I am. There has always been that fear, deep inside, of being a fat person, screwing up, and having the so called beautiful people laugh at me and make fun. Which, in retrospect, is probably the main reason why I have never really fought to lose weight. For fear of failing and being laughed at. BUT! I don't think I care anymore what is said about me. I give back now, as good as I have ever gotten. I don't brook no shit! I have to have that attitude. It's the only way for me to survive, I guess. I just hope and pray that it doesn't back fire on me and make me a mean and cold hearted person later on in life, like some of my relatives have become. Maybe if I keep that in my mind's eye, I will be ok. *sighs* Here's hoping things go well this morning! I'll post later on, after my gym visit.

*sighs* Well....do to unforseen circumstances, I did not get to the gym as planned. Fighting with your spouse does not a happy mood make. And this was a doozy. So...I did not go.

Here's to trying to go today!

I am going to take hubby's advice....make a schedule on when I go, and other have to work around it for me. I need the gym....for my own sanity and for my weight loss. Time to get working on the schedule!

Todays mumbles

Well, today I start at the gym. I have been a little intimidated, almost scared, to go in and start. But, everything is paid, I NEED it, so I shall go. I shall post back here as often as I can, to keep my gym visits updated.

Bah! *redneck bye*